Hello everyone! Ok I’m not really sure where to start on this one. I have wanted to do this blog for such a long time and now that I have come to write it I have no idea where to start! Ahhhhh!!
I guess the best place to start would be at the beginning. I was first diagnosed with psoriasis at the age of 4, so in all honesty I don’t really know what life is like to have completely “normal” skin and not having to worry about it. And even though I have had this condition for such a long time, does not mean I am used to it and I’m fully comfortable with having this condition. I still have my weak points, my bad days and my insecurities and psychologically, it’s a constant battle! Psoriasis really does know how to knock your confidence. There isn’t a day where I don’t think about my psoriasis and it’s the first thing I think about every day. My day begins and ends with treating my skin, and at the end of the day I’m drained and exhausted!
Initially, my psoriasis started off with a few patches here and there, mostly on my elbows, knees and behind my ears. And then when I hit my teens, it took over, attacking 90% of my body. Those of you who have psoriasis know exactly how stubborn it can be at times. So after trying a combination of different treatments and medication I slowly managed to get my skin under control again.
Psoriasis sufferers all have different journeys. For some sufferers, psoriasis comes and goes, some have had it constantly throughout and some people have probably just had it once in their life and its never come back since. I have always had it. I do go through phases where it drastically calms down and its hardly noticeable, with a few patches here and there, and then equally go through phases where it aggressively comes back, but I have never been completely psoriasis-free. It tends to gets worse during exam time due to stress, and having just finished my final year at university resulted in my recent severe outbreak.
I know I’ve made this blog seem a little dull and negative, and people always say that there are positives in every situation, and I used to think really?! What are the positives of living with a visible chronic illness? But I have realised that there are. Having psoriasis has shaped my life and the way I am and I now appreciate the smallest and littlest things in life. My recent outbreak has taught me a lot and it’s definitely been toughest and hardest part of my long on-going journey with psoriasis so far. I was at such a low point and I can’t even describe the headspace I was in at that moment in time. I have always ignored my psoriasis and never used to talk about it openly because I was ashamed of it, and I let my psoriasis take over and control my life. But then I don’t know what happened. One day something randomly clicked and I thought I’m not going to let my psoriasis control me anymore. It made me realise that by me hiding my psoriasis really means that I am not accepting who I am and I’m hiding away from myself. This motivated me to start blogging about my journey to help others and help raise awareness , because I know exactly how tough and daunting this journey can be.
I just want to end this blog by saying wear your scars with pride and be proud of who you are. Psoriasis is not contagious. Awareness is!